Monday, 19 September 2016

Thinking Out Loud | My Thoughts On Turning Twenty Five


It has gotten to that point when I have hit the mile stone that is a quarter of a century. Twenty Five. Such a statement of a number. I am now in my second half of my twenties, heading down hill towards thirty. I am an official adult now and boy do I suddenly feel old. 

When I was younger I used to think that so much would have happened by now. I was certain that I would be married, have a kid and be well on my way with my career. Well, as it happens, none of that has happened. Don't get me wrong, I'm really not ready for marriage and children, and I do enjoy the job I have. I guess, just reaching this mile stone has made me reflect on things a little more, and re-evaluate what is going on in my life. 

I am currently sat by a log fire with a hot cup of coffee, watching the drizzle outside pour over the valley that is my current view here in the Lake District. James and I decided to have a week away in September and thought it ideal that my birthday fell right in the middle. It has been lovely so far, relaxing, reading, listening to music and having the time to spend together without either one of us rushing off to work or something. 

Although this week is a perfect opportunity to clear my head, I do feel as though it has given me  a chance to think about things and mull over what I want from life. Without getting too heavy, I am happy to admit that the current job I am doing, isn't exactly what I set out to do. I am not saying that I am going to leave or anything, but just that, I think it is so easy to get bogged down with daily routines and sometimes, before I know it, another week has begun and I have no idea where the last one went. 

I guess, what I'm getting at is that, I want to start looking at things in a different way. Although I love my life, living with James, having our little home together and working where I do, I just want there to be something more. I feel as though twenty five marks the end of being able to faff around, being laidback and thinking that there is plenty of time to do anything. For me at least, I feel as though I need to kick-start getting things into gear and I guess become a little more mature. I'm not saying that I will no longer have fun, but I want to have a little more focus on a daily basis and start to bring the bigger picture a little closer and start to tackle aims and goals that have been in the back of my mind for a while. 

I wasn't really sure what was going to come out when I sat down to write this post, and I don't mean for it to sound negative, I guess it's just me sharing my thoughts on this milestone that I have reached. I know that I am still respectively young and I don't mean to sound so down about growing up. I think that I have now just got to the point that I want to do more for myself and do more things that I want to do. I feel excited at the prospect of getting organised, taking a little more time for myself and having a good think about what it is I want from life.


Do you ever feel a little lost and that you need to take some time to bring things back into focus?

Madolyn
xxx

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