Today’s post is a little different to what I usually write and blog about. On Madolyn Thinks you are likely to find lots of beauty reviews, travel posts, what books I have been reading lately and a few other lighthearted lifestyle bits and bobs. Today however, I thought that I would just let my thoughts and feelings spill out onto the page a little more and share a few life thoughts that I have been having lately…

Now, without getting too down and deep about ‘what is my life’s purpose’ and ‘what am I even doing?!’, it is true to say that I have been questioning my life of late and have had long, hard talks with myself about what I actually want to achieve. Speaking to family and friends about my worries has shed a big light on the fact that a lot of people do not know what they are doing in life, but feel as though they need to act like they do because everyone else seems too, which is exactly how I felt. 

I graduated from university about four years ago and although I have a lovely house that I share with my long-term boyfriend and our weird yet wonderful cat, when it came to my career and what I wanted to do with my life I felt very lost. I was waitressing when I came straight out of University, and about eighteen months ago I got a nine-five-office job, which I thought would make me happier. Gone were the long hours, six day weeks, never knowing what time I would finish work or what days I had off, serving tea and coffee and constantly smelling of food.  However, after getting my regular job with regular hours earning a regular wage, I realised yet again that I still wasn’t happy, I still wasn’t working towards anything and I still felt unfulfilled. 

One thing that was making me happy however was my blog. I have been building and working on Madolyn Thinks for the last few years and realised that I was happiest when I was planning blog posts, writing, taking pictures, filming, networking, attending events and speaking to like-minded people. It suddenly dawned on me that this is what I wanted to work towards, this was the drive that was missing in my life and this is something that I am passionate about and would love to succeed in. 

Blogging for me was always secondary, which I found incredibly frustrating. I could only do it on an evening and at weekends, which meant that everything felt rushed and pre-planned. Nothing was spare of the moment and I felt like it was hindering my creativity. I was also really tired all of the time, feeling as though I was working two full time jobs and all of my spare time was filled with working on and thinking about my blog. I didn’t want it to be a negative thing; I didn’t want it to feel like a chore…

So, after speaking things through with James, sorting out my finances and sorting out a rough plan, I spoke to my boss and I have now reduced my hours at work to allow for more time to be focused on what I am truly passionate about. This is something that I would have never of imagined me doing but I am so excited and almost giddy at the thought of what’s around the corner. It was the realisation that life is too short to not enjoy the things you love and it truly made me realise what is important in life; happiness. 

Don’t get me wrong, I am a very happy person and I am grateful for all of the wonderful things that I have in my life. But when it came to me, myself and I, I knew that I wanted more, I knew that I wanted to be less stressed, be less tired and feel more fulfilled, more meaningful and enjoy myself. Although I know that I am still relatively young, I am aware of what’s around the corner and so I want to take that leap of faith now whilst I don’t have children, a mortgage or responsibly. While I can still be selfish and do what I want to do…

What are your thoughts on Taking A Leap Of Faith?
Do you ever feel frustrated and like you don't know what you're doing in life?


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